daydreaming and insomnia

what is blog

2011-04-30T09:20:00.001-04:00

sigh

2011-04-09T23:10:00.001-04:00

nothing to see here officer

let's keep moving

don't hold up traffic

2011-01-17T21:58:00.001-05:00

so much work

so little time

TO RAGE

Checking in once again

2011-01-16T02:21:00.001-05:00

when shit crawls through my mind

it crawls

A FUCKING TURTLE

and then it burrows into my mind

so it's slow, and stuck

lol it's 6:46

2010-06-25T06:45:00.000-04:00

and i slept at 2

i'm an idiot

it's day 1

2010-06-23T00:52:00.000-04:00

and i'm already bored.
i want to go out, home is boring.

today was gloomy and muggy and RAINY.
why so sad, sky?

:|

2010-06-22T09:21:00.001-04:00

school's done.

can't really believe it.

Tomorrow's game over

2010-06-17T17:31:00.000-04:00

fuck school

i hate this stupid english assignment
it's made me rage too much

i've been unable to sleep well this entire week, and this assignment's just another thing to keep me awake from, holy hell.

tomorrow's game over, till then...

rage

the insomniac's dream

2010-06-14T01:56:00.001-04:00

LOL IRONY!!!

i dunno, i've completed two paragraphs of my essay. one of them is a paragraph. wtf.

DAMNIT

2010-06-12T20:18:00.001-04:00

I love Eminem's new album.

God, today was horrible, it was fucking raining so hard and I'm just standing outside. In the rain. Cold.

fuck. k time to work on english

hmm...

2010-06-11T00:05:00.001-04:00

I feel like I should rage, but there is no one to blame but myself.
I'll rage myself to sleep.

Haven't checked in

2010-06-05T19:04:00.002-04:00

Nosiree... but it's June 5th.

Year's over already soon, and damn... it went by fast. I'm happy I'm done with OP, at a job hopefully I'll enjoy over the summer, get money.

Hopefully I'll get my insurance soon too, so I can finally drive. While I'm waiting for that, I'll finish up the Kite Runner. It's a pretty decent book after all, I expected it to suck. I actually WANTED to read it, and I've about 10 pages to go. Awesome, finished a book in 3 days.

gah.

lolwhat

2010-05-16T08:25:00.002-04:00

lol I haven't posted in a while.

I guess I should've... It was a better week than usual.
Even though I got rejected by the Scarborough YMCA, I got hired at the one that's 1 hour away. I get paid for the bus ride though, which is amazing.

Then I passed my G2 test... after my second try :[

Yesterday I had to go work... with 11,000 girl guides screaming in joy. I am so happy that I'm done with that place after the 29th.

i want to rage

2010-05-09T19:03:00.002-04:00

... but i can't.
i didn't get the job at the ymca after a month and a half long wait.
and i hate the area in which toronto's residing province's amusement park with a passion.

sigh.
my new plans:
quit op, get g2 + insurance, go search for a job.

straight up

2010-05-07T23:14:00.002-04:00

i am so fucking pissed. i've been working at this piece of shit for two years. this will be my third. THIRD spent in this cesspool. and i got moved to the most HECTIC fucking area in the entire park. now i am seriously ticked off.

now i need to spend some weekends here, fucking waking up at 6 in the morning to take the fucking ttc to stand around, like bullshit. why the fuck does this guy have to play me like this? attending an interview... supposedly with flying and colourful answers, giving me a LATE AS FUCK response, and then end up playing me at the end. fucking telling me that THEY'RE STILL CONSIDERING ME AFTER FUCKING CALLING MY CONTACTS, while my friend receives an email, with him telling her that WHEE ALL PEOPLE ARE HIRED

LIKE FUCK YOU. what a fucking snake.

i get so pissed just thinking about this, and i don't even know where to fucking apply. i am so frustrated.

2010-05-03T16:46:00.001-04:00

I'm so fucking frustrated.

SO DAMN TIRED.

2010-05-02T10:51:00.004-04:00

I woke up Friday morning with an eye infection. That was extremely uncomfortable, and now I have to put some sort of ointment IN my eye, and become blinded for about 3-5 minutes afterwards... it's not too comfortable.

Then I had to trek down to downtown to go to this place that I'm going to work for the summer, jeez. I had to wake up at 7... and get there at 8:30. Then sit in a chair until 3:30. That was EXTREMELY boring, I couldn't even take out my phone covertly and text people.

KJFLSJF that place I applied to needs to call me back asap.

fuck i just remembered, i fell asleep without brushing my teeth... and doing my situps + pushups, fuck.

2010-05-02T10:51:00.001-04:00

UNRAGE?

2010-04-27T18:03:00.000-04:00

I dunno, the YMCA finally called me back and they told me that they'd call me back on the weekend after calling my references... at least I know they're considering me.

I'm still raging, though... I dunno why. There's still a chance that they won't hire me.

STARTED PUSHUPS AND SITUPS AGAIN TODAY.SLKJLSKGJSL

my phone just doesn't like to ring

2010-04-24T12:50:00.001-04:00

It's been a week and I still haven't had a call from that place that I applied to.

I seriously want this job... if I don't want to be working at that place that I've worked in the past two years.

I also need to read 1984... why the FUCK does it have to be that I have to do the final 3 chapters like wtf.

rage.

DAMNIT

2010-04-19T23:01:00.002-04:00

I've been waiting for a call from the place I got an interview from since the 15th. I'm just gonna call the tomorrow, ask what's up. If I don't get the job, I'll be extremely disappointed... but I have to suck it up. Because I now work in the worst position nameable in the "place which I work that I cannot name" for a reason I still don't know.

This past week hasn't been too much of a joyride, and 1984 isn't helping.

Nothing's really helping. My G2 test is coming up next Thursday, and I'm not even sure if I'm ready for it or not.

It's 11:03, I've done NOTHING the entire day, all I did was get a cut and watch TV and play games. Sigh. Today's episode of House was really good though... Thirteen's character was surprisingly open, again.

"You don't need to win anyone's heart, you just need to ask for it."

K time to read 1984. Or so I say I would.
I dunno, 5 minutes will tell if I'm still on the computer, or on my bed reading.

RAGEAHOLIC

2010-04-16T20:40:00.001-04:00

I think I rage too often. I don't want to work at OP for a 3rd year... but it's nearing a very close possibility if the Y doesn't call me back.

It's seriously pissing me off, and I have to read 1984. lksjfsjsfjsf;j

Shut your mouth

2010-04-10T19:44:00.002-04:00

Before I fuck it, ha my jokes they will love it.

I'm slowly awaiting my employment with the YMCA. Ontario Place called me for my contract signing... and I don't want to go back for my third summer. I wrote something about OP on my twitter, and I'm told OP monitors twitter, like what the fuck.

Now I'm slaving over yearbook, waiting for a call from the Y, and starving. MOMMMYYY WHERE ARE YOU :(

oh yeah I got a new microwave. It's so shiny... and not old.

2010-04-09T00:35:00.002-04:00

My stomach is showing. I'm being totally serious here Dallas, your stomach is showing. Why aren't you doing your sit ups? Why are you getting lazy?

Why is yearbook so annoying? Why do I hate people so much?

The YMCA should call me soon to tell me I got a job there so I can get guaranteed 40 hours a week with $10.25 pay. So I can go to the gym and regain what I lost in 2 quick years.

G2 is approaching fast. April 27th. Don't know if I'm prepared yet.

1984 is bullshit. Fucking hell.

Take a break

2010-04-05T17:18:00.002-04:00

Have a kit kat.

Haven't had one in awhile... but anyways. Worked on peer tutoring today... I need to finish it ASAP, so I can also start on English. Decided to take a break and just goof off for a bit.

School really pisses me off sometimes, because I want to go out, but I can rarely manage my time, being the professional procrastinator I am. Sometimes I wonder about what I miss out on, with all these opportunities I skipped out on.

k back to peer tutoring.

april lol's day

2010-04-02T22:40:00.002-04:00

See when I get access to tape, and cardboard, all sorts of things happen. Poor Mateen, but it was totally worth the hour of work.

Anyways so I finally got that 2500 texts plan, so I can text text text... jeez. I kinda want a plan now. I need to do.. yearbook, peer tutoring, English.

FUCK. :(

Cornucopia of wut

2010-03-29T21:38:00.002-04:00

Working on ILC. It's due December 11th, 2010. Maybe I should get a move on, seeing that my friend just received his and has gotten further than I have already.

I sat on my bed and thought for awhile. I stared into the ceiling with some Deadmau5 blasting in the background, as I pondered about life. I realized I value friendships a lot. Sometimes too much, but I guess there's no such thing as that, and it's not a bad thing.

I don't mind taking risks with money. I do mind taking risks with priceless things.

lolwhat

2010-03-28T19:49:00.003-04:00

i don't feel like using punctuation today, because i'm lazy.

k, so the highlights of my day were; i beat the fucking elite four, LIKE A BUKLAO. and i ate a massive lunch which was also my breakfast and i got up at 11 LIKE A BOSS.

i played battlefield for 2 hours with tyler, was some intense shit. much profanities were screamed, and such, but that's normal for xbox live and friends.

one that that's irritated me lately is my lack of situps. i did it for like 2 weeks and i stopped. i don't know why. i really hate having a fast metabolism, because i look at myself, and think, hmmm if i actually bother working out i'd look better. but i have no motivation to look better. i don't eat right, i don't exercise enough, and i'm just naturally skinny. i lost so much muscle from grade 10, it's ridiculous, but i can't even tell if i have. if i even touch a weight machine, i just gasp.

i'm skinny. i have no muscle mass, but i just look toned. because i am skinny. i look like i work out... but i don't. it really irritates me.

in other news i want these shirts.

Chronicles of Wild Things

2010-03-27T00:10:00.002-04:00

That title bears no relevance to anything, but I decided not to bother with the BLOG EVERYDAY. I don't have anything TO blog about and talking about random shit just seems like filler, and I feel like "lying" to myself.

Today was my interview with YMCA... I think I did well. I'm not entirely sure, but the people interviewing me seemed nice, and they seemed positive about my answers. If not, I'm going to be really disappointed...

Anyways, now that English is moved out of the way, April 9th is the yearbook deadline, and I have to do an essay on peer tutoring by the 8th.

Do I not get a fucking break?

FINALLY

2010-03-24T16:05:00.002-04:00

Poetry done.

I can finally do random shit for a bit. Then my stupid fucking teacher bitches about random things that pertain to NOTHING he said the class before, wasting my time.

I slept at 3 last night. Woke up at 8. I fucking feel horrible right now, but I can't fall asleep.

Augh.

I want pizza.

2010-03-23T20:51:00.000-04:00

Poetry is a bitch.

And we alll know that.
Now I'm busy with this because I'm a hella procrastinator.

Taking a break. Saw a heartbreaking photo on tumblr, and I'm shedding a tear.

brb, being a man

1 hours and 32 minutes late

2010-03-22T01:32:00.000-04:00

I did my poems.

I forgot the fact that the shirt is going to be a MASSIVE BITCH to do.

Same with the reflections.
Due on Wednesday.

I FORGOT MY SITUPS TODAY FUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

FUCK YEAH

2010-03-21T12:52:00.001-04:00

POETRY DONE

SDFKS;LFKSLFGH

now i need to do a fuckign essay, and a shirt. by wednesday.

Indifferent

2010-03-20T01:55:00.002-04:00

I wake up at 11 when there's no school.
3 or 4 out of the 5 days I go to school, I get home at 11:30ish.
I feel indifferent about weekdays and days off school now.

Anyways, I've got 7 pieces of poetry done. THAT'S A NEW RECORD, 3 PIECES IN A DAY?
HOLY SHIT DALLAS I'M SO PROUD OF YOU.

In other news, I forgot to do my situps.
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

POETRY RAGE II

2010-03-19T01:04:00.003-04:00

I have 4 poems done.
Out of 10 that I need to do.

And I need to do a t-shirt.
And an essay.
And pick two poems that I LOVEEEE.

With three fucked up fingers.

I did my situps today. YEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAH

I want to wish Bonnie GOOD LUCK with her driving test. By the time she reads this, she'd probably already passed.

DERP

2010-03-18T19:40:00.001-04:00

No wonder I haven't been receiving analytics... I forgot to put the code in.

Smart

2010-03-18T01:43:00.001-04:00

Spent the day sitting round in the car with my dad. Didn't get anything done.

Meanwhile, I touched a lit cigarette lighter in his car. Burned my finger to a crisp, now it's bandaged, and it somewhat hurts to type.

And I still haven't finished 8 poems.

FUCK.

and I didn't do my situps today.

FUCK.

Productivity? PSHT

2010-03-17T01:27:00.000-04:00

I told myself that I'd be working on poems all day today, and at the library with Bonnie.

It didn't happen. It's not that I chose not to, it's that I fucking HATE poetry with a passion.

I told myself that I was to finish ALL my poems, as if that were a feat that's possible with a guy who completely hates creative writing.

Also, it's 1:27, I played Battlefield for 2 hours, my hands are hurting, and I still haven't showered.
Oh and I need to do my situps.

FUCK

Monday, aka HOUSE

2010-03-16T00:10:00.000-04:00

I did nothing today... like usual. I really should start working on my poetry... it's due quite soon.

Then again... I'm going to the library tomorrow, where I have nothing but a pencil, a nice warm XL mocha, and paper. Oh and a strange asian girl who's gonna follow me around like a creep.

I feel like I'm getting lazier and lazier with these blogs. I'm just repeating what I'm saying OVER and OVER again because that's all that ever happens.

Oh shit, I forgot to do my situps today.

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

FAT.

2010-03-15T01:40:00.001-04:00

I'm not actually fat. I'm a skinny asian with an extremely fast metabolism. So the chances that I'll become fat before the age of 18 is slim.
LOL PUN!!

Anyways.. yesterday I ate an assload of stuff, chilled, and did nothing productive. Today, I ate an assload, chilled, and did nothing productive.

That's two days of pure eating.

That's two days. TWO.

My stomach overcame my mind, and I totally forgot to do my situps before showering. So I ended up doing situps... AFTER I shower. Maybe that's a bit stupid... whatever.

Forgetful

2010-03-13T22:57:00.001-05:00

I totally forgot to blog on Friday... I have no idea why.

I think all the raging gets to my head, I get tired, I shower at 12 in the morning, and then sleep at 2, makes me totally forget I should be blogging.

Then again... I can always pull the excuse that my life is constantly boring, and that I have nothing TO blog about.

Today was my friend's birthday, and damn. We went to his house to be totally retarded and ate assloads, and chilled in the basement like fools. Played games, a really bad game of truth or dare and charades. MORE LIKE CHARAGES.

Today was fun, I ate an ASSLOAD of food, and my stomach is showing, and I feel like I can't do my sit ups tonight... but I am determined to. DETERMINED.

Oh and I heard the English version of Wedding Dress by some two rappers... what's eerie about it, is that the English lyrics picked, still sounds REMOTELY like the original Korean... blabbering.

Productivity -2, Dallas -1

2010-03-12T00:58:00.000-05:00

Sometimes I feel like going to Delphi numbed my affection for holidays and weekends. I had one class today, and I was bored as shit.

I gamed, wasted time, worked on a BIT of art.

I need to get to work soon, and fast.

And I need to remember my day, so that this blog doesn't go to waste.

Productivity 0, Dallas 1

2010-03-10T22:57:00.000-05:00

I struggle to be productive. Even on days with nothing to do.
I have an English assignment due on the 24th, and I just can't do it. I'm horrible at poetry, because I am a literal thinker.

Do I have an imagination? Nope. I think smoking a joint would be easier than to pull some surrealist shit out my ass. I think too literally to create effective poetry. The only reason I wanted to do a poetry unit on sweatshops, is because there was a t-shirt involved in the presentation process.

Now I'm stuck with a half-written poem, with literal language. I need to go visit the library and focus SOLELY on this assignment. Probably at that BRAND SPANKING NEW HOLY SHIT FREE WIFI library that Bonnie told me about. Maybe I should renew my library card while I'm at it...

<3 :DDDD

Take in Moderation

2010-03-10T00:12:00.001-05:00

Procrastination, it's the seed of all that is evil. EVIL.

My English project is due exactly two weeks from now, March 24th. The new Pokemon game comes out March 14th. How the hell will I be able to do this?

Tomorrow (or later today) I'm going to the hospital with my dad and sister for his surgery... I don't even know what it's for, but I know it's not going to be good afterwards.

Sigh. I also need to call my driving instructor some time soon if I want my G2...

Ragequit

2010-03-08T23:40:00.001-05:00

I watched House today.

I am currently working on some art.

My Mondays are NEVER productive.

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

2010-03-08T16:39:00.001-05:00

I knew I was forgetting something yesterday. I forgot to post.

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
That breaks another routine of mine.

But then again... I didn't do much yesterday. Stayed at home, worked on my dad's car... for majority of the day.

Then I ragequitted from playing call of duty.

Saturdays...

2010-03-06T18:32:00.000-05:00

They're always relatively boring for me. I seldom go out, cause I have no life, etc etc etc.

I normally start writing a post at around 11 PM... but I can tell that today's not gonna be too exciting, so might as well start writing at 6:30. Today I woke up at 9, went to go help my dad with his car at 10:30, till now. My hands are freezing, and I am so tired.

I really hate my immigrant neighbours. Not because they're immigrants, but because they're the kind of immigrants that care about nothing but themselves, and make my family look bad, because they're right beside us. There are like, fucking 340 people in that home, there's like 30 different families in there, living in a home that's smaller than mine. Every 10 minutes someone's coming in and out, and every 3 hours there's someone honking the horn waiting for someone to go to work.

I also planned to go to the library today, but turns out they close at 5:30. :(
I actually wanted to be productive, work on some art and English... oh well. I guess that isn't happening, huh?

I am really craving a sandwich,
a sandwich that can kill
a sandwich that will be my bitch.

Said meal, would be from Subway,
a Subway sandwich, of godly proportions,
for 5 dollars, a pizza sub for my day.

But I sit alone in my room, hungry and cold,
staring at my computer screen, typing,
make food? A decision too bold.

Oh I also cleaned my shoes today... they look much better now after trekking around the mud going home yesterday. :)
I may not be a sneakerhead, but I do like my shoes to be clean.

EDIT: I AM DETERMINED TO DO MY SITUPS ROUTINE AGAIN. STARTING TODAY.

Fridays!

2010-03-05T23:45:00.000-05:00

THANK HOUSE IT'S FRIDAY.
THIF?

That means House is coming in 3 days :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:DD::D:D

Anyways, Fridays, long ass days. Today me and my friends went to go dim sum, at chinese restaurant near the school... it was interesting seeing my two brown friends struggle to understand what the food was.

Asides from that, today my friend with the sexy camera did a "photoshoot" in the boys change room in the dark... you know what I'm getting to right? Pure, uncensored, unadulterated, male action, with some females. WITH GLOWSTICKS.

It was pretty fun... I was telling him to do these shoots for a while now, ever since he got the camera.

Back to surrealism... I can't paint. I can't think of anything that's legitimately trippy, and yet reasonable for this art piece. So far I drew a melting rose with two rings. Now my art teacher wants me to put it on a giant rock. WHAT THE HELL.

I stumbled across that on Tumblr today, and noticed how genius that is. I wish I could come up with these sort of things...

Alright, so onto another shorter topic, I've been enjoying Kid Cudi's song, "Up Up and Away" recently... and I don't know why. Maybe it's the cheeriness, the uplifting sound of the song, or maybe it's just me... you know, liking a song for no inherent reason, like I do with all songs. It's about wake and baking, and I have bear no relevance to this song, but I feel that it talks about haters, and how people should just do whatever the hell they want. "They gon' judge me anyways, so whatever..."

Aight, chao outsideeeee

POETRY RAGE

2010-03-04T20:37:00.000-05:00

I STILL NEED TO DO MY POETRY.

Oh so today I wanted to go dim sum with my friends, but going dim sum with only one other person is

hella homo
not worth it

So I went to eat pho... for breakfast/lunch. And went on to have an argument that Olivia Wilde was number 1 on Maxim's hottest women, and not Megan Fox.

AND I WAS RIGHT.

Story of my day... today was boring. I really don't look forward to trying to paint surrealist pieces... I wiki'd surrealism, and all I see are trippy as FUCK pieces. I'm pretty sure it'd be much easier to smoke a joint and sketch something out, than to try and draw something out sober, and make it look surreal. Not that I'd smoke though...

Like seriously, wtf IS that.

And this... I swear to god LSD did not exist back in the 40s.

I think a drug free alternative to surrealism... is watching Spongebob.

Rageaholic

2010-03-03T23:10:00.000-05:00

Today my English teacher went on a bitchfest about our class. Gave me a 6.5 on a piece that I legitimately worked hard on. This is why I hate poetry, you think you try hard, but then it ends up looking like a pile of shit, when someone else reads it.

Now I have a poetry assignment to do it's due on the 24th, and I have to write 10 poems, and a method to display them.

I HATE POETRY.

Bored...

2010-03-02T23:43:00.000-05:00

I need to get out of the habit of not hearing my phone, and WAKE UP AT 8:00.

This morning the steering wheel lock on my car wouldn't budge. I was late for art. I was very bored in art, learning about random paintings and how men are pigs, etc etc etc.

I feel that the less I have to do, the more I feel like just sleeping the entire day. I did absolutely nothing today, nothing productive, AT ALL.

Sometimes I wish my life was more interesting, and spent it doing something other than game and my computer, so that this blog would be interesting to read many many years from now.

Until then, hi future Dallas, past Dallas is boring as fuck, take that as a cue, TO BE MORE INTERESTING.

Mondays...

2010-03-01T22:58:00.001-05:00

They're depressing. They're boring. I woke up this morning at 8:30... and didn't get out of bed until 8:40. It's amazing that I still get to school on time when it starts at 9.

Yeah so I went to get my hair cut today. I wanted it to be trimmed. TRIMMED.
TRIMMED. Now I'm basically bald, with long bangs. It really irritates me, and I want to wear a hat now. :[

AND, I THOUGHT TODAY WAS HOUSE. Clearly it wasn't.

THIS DAY MAKES ME RAGEAEEEE

CANAADADADADAAAAA

2010-02-28T22:50:00.000-05:00

We won gold in hockey. FUCK YEAH.

Anyways, so yesterday I raged about not doing my daily routine of situps. Turns out that was a good idea. A VERY GOOD IDEA. At some point when I was awake doing nothing, my stomach was on fire. It wasn't like boohoo cramps stomach ache, it was like legit, upper abdomen RAGE. I couldn't sleep, eating was doing nothing, and I felt like dyingggg.

I fell asleep on the couch, surprisingly. It wasn't a fun night.

I didn't really do much today... but now
... wow I alt tabbed to go check something out and I totally forgot what to say.

It's safe to say this was the most useless post ever. OF ALL TIME.

Simba! :D
k chao outside

Social Uselessness...

2010-02-27T22:21:00.000-05:00

versus useless socializing. There's a difference between the two, and I prefer the former. (If you haven't noticed already, I love saying "former and latter.")

Today I went to the mall with Bonnie. Nothing special, she just wanted to go shopping, and I decided to just be a good friend and tag along. I was the honorary girlfriend, like I am always with my female friends... not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I can just tolerate the dress shopping and makeup cruising, and make witty and sarcastic remarks to keep myself entertained, and them annoyed. :)

We spent like 3 hours there, and we did absolutely nothing. She went to buy something for coop, and I tagged along, and shared a lunch with her. We chatted, talked, walked around the mall for 3 hours. And the mall isn't exactly big either, so we began circling around the mall quite a bit of times.

Did I do much? Nope. Did she? Nope.
The point of going out with a friend, is to socialize. Sure, some people find that socializing is useless without spending money, or actively participating in an activity or something, but for me, I feel that, you know, doing nothing with a friend is equally as good as doing something with a friend.

"But I don't want to go to X... there's nothing to do!" I certainly don't care where I go when I'm with friends, I just like spending time with people. It's a social quality that I feel that embodies my philosophy of minimalism.

Some may say that I wasted my time, having bought nothing, or done nothing proactively. Everyone's entitled to their opinion, and I respect that. But I went to the mall with a friend, and she's more important to me than just buying a bunch of shit, and calling it a day. Spending time, and just chatting for a bit, to me goes a longer way than just spending money and killing time.

I'd rather spend time with friends, than sitting at my computer on a Saturday any day.

I need to get this job at the YMCA. GOD FUCKING DAMNIT I CAN'T EVEN FIND THE GUY WHO CALLED ME WHEN I WAS AT THE SKI TRIP.

CHAO OUTSIDEEE

Ski Day!

2010-02-26T18:55:00.000-05:00

Today, my school went on a ski trip.

The important thing of the matter is, that I did NOT stay on the bunny hill for 3 hours like I did last time. It was the most annoying point of my life.

Passed an easy "test" and I just went skiing over and over again. Along with Bonnie and another friend, I was tired for a few hours, climbing up hills after wipe outs... lack of speed, etc etc. The wipe outs were usually me, though.

It was a really fun day! I have a feeling tomorrow morning, I'm going to wake up with destroyed legs and arms. I can just feel it. My neck is really stiff right now as well, because you know... I'm not used to wearing a helmet for an extended period of time.

Speaking of sore muscles, I told myself I'd be doing the 50 situps everyday. AND I SKIPPED OUT YESTERDAY. WHAT THE HELL WAS I DOING. ARGH. I am so angry at myself. I can't even hold down a simple routine to keep myself in shape. I really wish I was down at my sister's or in a condo or something. I want to just work out with a machine, it feels more fulfilling.

Hopefully I'll get a job at YMCA, and I'll just go work out then.

rage. time to go do my situps for real, and then shower.

BODY RAGE

2010-02-25T22:06:00.000-05:00

Ever since I went to Hong Kong in December, and then in January again, I got pudgy. My face looks a bit wider, my arms are no longer as defined, and my stomach is slightly showing.

Then again, maybe it's just me, because everyone still thinks I'm as skinny as I looked 10 years ago. Then again, I'm the one who wakes up in the morning, noticing my stomach is getting a bit pudgy.

Then again,in grade 5 when I went to Hong Kong for TWO MONTHS during the summer, I gained 15-20 pounds. All fat. At that point, I was too young to notice this... and I took consideration of my slight roundness, and I got extremely skinny by grade 7.

Maybe it's the asian metabolism? Who knows, I'm nearing the end of puberty, and that's going to crash and burn unless I keep myself in shape. Grade 9 and 10 kept me in shape, because of an effective gym course I took, but now that this new bitchy, useless teacher came around, that all came to a halt.

There's a problem when you gain 0 pounds from going to Hong Kong TWICE in a month's span. I'm not gaining weight, because I'm losing muscle mass, while I gain fat. With the latter at a quicker speed than the former.

With my iPhone gone, I don't even have a pushup app to keep in line with my upper body strength, so my arms are going back to pre-grade 9. Yesterday began my 50 sit ups before I shower routine, and I hope I can keep it up.

I just want to see a change in my body for now, like what happened in grade 9. I went from a skinny ass asian kid, to a skinny ass defined asian kid. Now I'm falling back into the former, and I don't want all that work gone to waste because of lack of motivation.

Multitask!

2010-02-24T20:55:00.000-05:00

Guess who's gonna do a post about a bunch of random things with no complete relevance to each other? THIS GUY.

I feel that I really should get a waterproof laptop or something. I had like 4 or 5 different things on my mind, ready to talk about while I was showering, but now I completely blanked out.

On Friday, my school's going on a ski trip, and I refuse to stay on the bunny hill for 3 hours again. Sometimes I question my abilities... because I can't pass the skiing tests, but I seldom fall while skiing. I have no idea what I'm up to.

On the topic of showering, I usually have my phone blaring out music to pass time. I don't have an iPhone anymore to do that job anymore, and now I've resorted to using my iPod, and a pair of speakers that are older than me. Not the same. NOT THE SAME.

On the topic of music, I've grown a liking to Kid Cudi's new album, Man on the Moon. Mainly because my classmate did a mini-presentation for English on the song Pursuit of Happiness. I realize I am a bit late... nearly a month after it has been released, but whatev's. I don't change my iTunes playlist often, so this adapts to my rigid music preferences.

On the topic of something TOTALLY irrelevant, the other day when I was busy highlighting Dada art notes in the car, I stared out the window. I was in downtown, we were picking up my sister. Sometimes I miss the downtown life, just chilling around... sometimes you don't need to BUY things, just walk around. Spend some time with friends from the suburbs, bask in the magicalness of downtown.

While looking out the window, I had the strange feeling of just envisioning a car. A car that I really want to own some day, and it's a reasonable goal as well. It's a first generation Mazda Miata, and I know what you're thinking "LOL THAT'S A CHICK CAR." Well it isn't, when you follow the stance movement. When you dump a Miata on 14" rims... it looks too perfect.

Look at that! It's quite g. Oh, and I want a GT-R, but that'll wait for when I'm rich.
And not 17.
:(

Winter!

2010-02-23T16:11:00.001-05:00

I'm going to shift my post a bit to my day. Last night was home to a really big snowfall, and results? A fair amount of snow in the morning! I wanted to drive in the snow so badly... seems fun, challenging, and rewarding.

Rewarding in the sense that if you're still alive, it's good!

Last night I fell asleep at 12:00. Earlier than I normally sleep, by alot. ALOT. I didn't have a chance to study for a test the next day. Turns out when I went to class, my teacher was like, "Screw it! We're just going over the test's questions and we're all getting 100."

I like to believe in my philosophy, "Good things come to those who don't study."
In grade 9, for my science exam, I didn't study for it and we got a cheat sheet for it.

But with that in mind, let's forget all those times I didn't do well on math tests, sigh.

SUBWAY IS SO GOOD NOM NOM NOM

k chao outside, mothafucka

It's snowy like it's Christmas

2010-02-22T16:59:00.000-05:00

But it's February 22nd. You're a bit late on the snow, weather.

Anyways, I slept at 2 last night trying to work on this art essay that I procrastinated. I later woke up at 6 to finish up what I could until I left for school. Sigh, four hours of sleep didn't do much for me.

Maybe someday I'll stop procrastinating. Maybe someday I'll even keep this blog up. I have no motivation, but I keep it as a record of my life. A cheque book, of all the transactions and interactions I've come across, in this turbulent stage of my life.

I'll get to post about something besides myself though.

Speaking of this cloudy weather though, I need to clarify something. If I am not even willing to drink alcohol, what makes you think I am going to smoke weed?

Foggy

2010-02-22T01:34:00.000-05:00

I'm amongst a sea of confusion at this point. I'm seventeen. I've been in high school for 2 years now, nearing my third and I still haven't a clue what I'm going to do with my life.

I've got no specific interest in anything. Can't I just sit at home and get paid? Do I really need to figure this out now, at a crucial point in my life?

I'm just constantly bombarded by my future. It keeps me awake. I can't sleep because I think about my future. I'm just there, lying in my bed. Wide awake with my eyes staring at the bland ceiling. My dad can only work for so long to keep my my family afloat amongst his declining health.

Maybe I'm just shutting out things too often. I think of it, forget about it in a few hours. Then it pops in my head again for an indefinite amount of time, and then I'm back in a state of remission. Sometimes I feel like I don't need to talk to anyone because of my nature. Sometimes I feel like I'm an idiot.

Sometimes I'm right.

I need to sleep. Chao outside, motherfuckers.